Belated New Year

I once said that I would try to blog more.  So much for that.

But it has been a while since I updated, so let me give you the rundown...

1. I lost my job the weekend of Another Anime Convention.
2. My girlfriend dumped me a week before Valentine's Day.
3. I am back in college.

First topic: I took a sick day and emailed that I wasn't going to be there. I get a call from the agency about my whereabouts. I send another e-mail, forget to send a copy to the agency.  Around 4:30 that afternoon, they drop the ball on me.  So fuck MDRC.  I knew you guys were going to ax me when the contacts list was updated with the new temp, with him having an official title and me as still a temp.  Fuck you guys.

Second topic: That will be for a separate blog post because there's a lot to talk about.  I will say this, I feel guilty as a manwhore for dating other women and not telling them of my status.  I had legit reason, but it still doesn't feel right.

Third topic: After being fired and doing another temp job, my unemployment is enough for me to live off of comfortably for a while.  So I figured that instead of job hunting, let me go back to school and finish up and get my degree, that way my job hunting will go a lot better.

That's it for now, peace!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Well everyone, have a great Turkey Day. ^_^

I do have some good news tho.  Remember this post here - http://www.djranmas.net/2011/10/learning-from-your-mistakes.html

I have an update.  So here's the thing.  I have this rule of where if I see someone more than three times that weekend at a con, I talk to that person.  Well this person in the first story... I saw her profile pop up twice while I was logged into LinkedIn, Foursquare, and Facebook.  I took a deep breath and added her to my Facebook.  Next day I saw she accepted the request.  Went over and said hi, she liked it and chatted back.  Ended up talking over Skype and things are cool now.

And I'm happy about that.

I am truly thankful of that.  The guilt that I carried around was lifted off my shoulders and disappeared.  Especially the fact that I look at her as family... Hell, I still do.  I think she knows if she needed help, I'd come, guns blasting, the whole nine.

Now, I'm gonna have some tea, a little tv, and prepare for my trip to my grandparents house.

Pay it Forward, Help Out

Usually my blog posts are about something relevant, something that bothers or even annoy me and I need a place to put these thoughts in hopes that someone would understand.

This time it's different.

I had just chatted with my bro Dymatrex.  It seems that a friend of ours from the past was just recently hit by a car over the weekend.  Upon finding that out, all of my memories with her just flooded back...  The skits, photoshoots, hanging out, all that good stuff.

I had even thought about getting in touch with her, just to see how she was doing and so forth.  Now that may not happen, and I feel guilty for not doing so.

I setup my shrine, lit my incense and candle. Callie, I wish a fast and speedy recovery for you.

You can head over to Jessi's blog for more info - http://jessiawesome.blogspot.com/2011/11/dear-friend-of-mine-callie-was-driving.html.  I ask that you give if she needs any help whatsoever.

Thank you.

Learning From Your Mistakes

I've been cosplaying for over ten years.  During this time, I've made stupid mistakes.  Mostly of me speaking before I think.  Granted most of us are guilty of that, but me more so than others.  I am thankful that I've learned from that.  I'm going to share with you all a couple of short stories of where my mouth has gotten me into trouble and how I learned from it.

A few years ago I was a cosplay judge at Anime Boston. After watching all of the skits and we went into the back to figure things out, I spoke out of turn about a Silent Hill skit. Honestly, I didn't know and I didn't realize what I had done.  One of my friends who was a judge told me the mistake I made and I apologized profusely about it. I didn't realize that after that, word gotten out to those people in that skit what I said. I had thought that what was said in closed doors, stayed there.  I thought wrong.

Monday night, said former friend called me up screaming about what I said.  And I was hurt over that.  I didn't think or realize that cosplays/cosplaying held a higher weight than a friendship.  I tried to apologize and explain, but she didn't want to hear it.  That was the last of it. I shed a tear and moved on.  Come to find out later that said person was still pissed.  It seems that a certain photo of her was leaked and someone was talking smack about her and the skits on various forums.  Was it me?  Nope.  I thought about trying to defend myself, but from what I saw, noone would believe me.  I said fuck it, and moved on.

Lately, I've been thinking about trying to fix that friendship.  But I don't have the willpower to do so, because I fear that trying to will just blow up in my face.  I do hope that this person knows that I'd like to fix that and let it be.

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Let's skip ahead to a few years later, Anime NEXT.  This one girl I was crushing on big time, stayed with me for the con.  She too had a thing for me, but whenever I tried to pursue, she pull up her defenses and start playing mind games.  Eventually I said fuck that and moved on.  She would stay at my house before and after the con.  Also because she would meet up with local photographers and needed crash space.  After the con, my best friend drove us home and we hung out on the Coney Island boardwalk.  Then after that, I really didn't hear too much from her.  I didn't think twice about that because I got swamped with work and other projects.

A few months later I dropped her a line to see what's up and she was quite rude to me. I demanded to know what her problem was.  She was mad at me because I told people that we slept together and that she was with me.  Immediately I told her that was an outright lie.  That con weekend, I never told anyone such a thing, but she didn't believe me.  I also found out that $700 was missing from the house too.  That would also explain why she stopped talking to me, and also why she stopped coming up to conventions in the NY / NJ / DC / MD areas, specifically the ones I goto.  I called her out for that and no response.

Skip to today where my new roommate is friends with her.  I told him everything what happened and he was like "Damn".  I sent her a friend request, thinking that she had let it be.  No reply.  I got angry, so wanted to call her out for her antics, but I said fuck it.  But I was hurt.  Hurt that she came up with this lie to cover up for the fact that she stole from my roommate.  I tried to put her on blast once, but that blew up in my face.  How I feel now? I just want her to admit she lied and she stole the money then all is forgiven.

Hopefully from reading these stories, you guys and gals understand why it's always a good thing to think before you speak and watch what you say....

GOODNIGHT!

Your Best Foot Forward

So I've been cosplaying for a long time.  As of the last couple of years, I don't consider myself a cosplayer, as in, I don't bring three to four new costumes to every single convention.  Most of the current fandoms just annoy me, damn weaboos.  I go to cons, bring my favorite costumes, do work for my website and publish it. I enjoy that.  But it seems that since I've gone to the production aspect of it, the usual circles I run with don't hit me up anymore.

At first it didn't bother me, because I was knee deep in working on podcasting and so forth.  But seeing how I've caught up with podcasting, photos, videos, no one drops me a line anymore. Hello, I'd love to gt up on stage and do a skit, make a total jackass of myself for fun.  It somewhat depresses me that these are people I've been hanging out with, baking bread with for over ten years and then you look at me as an outcast?  Well instead of me cursing up a storm, I'm simply going to shrug my shoulders and say "It is what it is".

One thing I did learn while I was in the Marine Corps, most of the time, I'm better off flying solo, doing the things that I want to do.  Maybe this is me growing up and being more of a responsible adult?  But looking at the grand scheme of things of this, I see the positives. I have a girlfriend who loves me and she has two awesome kids. In due time, we'll be one big happy family and I'll have two wonderful step kids to take to conventions and show them the good times that I've have.

If that fails, my levels of resentment towards people will simply triple, hahahaha.